$41.46

I'm walking to the local Coinstar to cash out my 25 lbs of change.  I think some of those quarters have been in my possession for 5 years, sitting in a big baggie in my car waiting for just the right parking meter or toll booth. I keep thinking of that scene from Money Ball where he says to himself, "what am I doing".  It relaxes me a bit. I'm a tangled ball of jangled nerves, have been for the last few days.  


I use Brad Pitt's line as a justification, or rationalization, or something with a "tion" on the end of it.  If you're not asking yourself that question every once in a while, your playing it safe, you're not challenging yourself.  You're staying inside the box.  At least that's what I tell myself.  


One thing I do know, this adventure has already payed dividends, and I haven't even gotten on the Texas Eagle yet. Packing up your life, and saying goodbye to everyone really gives you a profound appreciation for the only thing in life that really matters, the people you love.  Everything else is just a waste of time.  I know you know that, but I sometimes forget. I now have that in my pocket along with $41.46.