As my key chain gets lighter and lighter, and the number of bills I have to pay each month dwindles, this delicious sense of freedom comes with a cost. Doesn't everything. Every time I share a moment with my son, or Kaelynn and Melissa, I get sad thinking that it will be a long time before I will see them again. Will Kaelynn even remember me? It's so heartbreaking when she yells out "amp-pa" and I know I'm not going to be there for a long time.
I have rationalized all the reasons why I need to do this. I've been stuck in a rut, both professionally and personally for a very long time, my right brain needs a chance to flourish, I need to see the world before I am too old. I want to be something different, something better then what I am. I know that means nothing to a two year old, but I hope that somewhere down the road, she will understand, and it may help her in her amazing journey.
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